Pupo

I know i am a hot-tempered guy. But that doesnt mean that im an animal
Im still human.

Why am i turning to this web-clouded blog again?
Bcs damn im covered in tears.

We fought yes. Often i could say.
But thats doesnt change the fact that i love her so much.
Arguing is different from hate.

Yes how i realize we fought over petty things.
But never once i hated her for it.
Not once. not even now.

Im still confused. Far from clear understanding.
Why would she compare herself with other girls.
Cant she see that my love towards her is absolute?

I cant event fathom the thought of being with another girl anymore.
I rather live alone. Gather up memories i have left of her.
And live with it.

 Im sure it'll be depressing.
Just to see immobilize pictures and frozen smiles.
Thos big round eyes, and puffy cheeks.
Damn i cant stop crying.
I.JUST.LOVE.HER.SO.MUCH.

Why cant she see. why cant she see..
That im always here for her..

Why would she think i would make her life miserable..
Or even humiliate her, making her look bad.
Why would i do that... to someone, im pouring my tears for.

i hate myself.
maybe the problem lies in the fact that i've been too soft.
for once. let me sleep in these tears.

at least they're warm..

Light in the Eyes

The thing is, everyone wants me to satisfy them. Every single bit. They never get enough, expectations here and there. Then what about me? who is there to satisfy what this little kid wants? I guess there's no one else except than this piece of metal im typing with.

I love someone, so much that i may even trade everything that i have so that i can be with her. Never felt this way before.

A love letter~

Its been 1 year and 2 month.

I've been knowing her.

She's everything that i love.
And she's gonna be the perfect person.
To take care of my later kids.

Yes. I"ve decided.
I'll marry her

Insya-Allah.

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A late letter~

I dont wanna use "it's been awhile since i posted something here"
it's kinda usual and u guys already know about this lame behavior of mine.

Yeah its me. Reporting again after living thru this system called life.
It's been a while :D

There's a lot of stuff happen lately.
Well, when i say lately it doesnt really mean "lately"
Lemme kinda adjust that word a bit.
How bout we use "around" ?
Okay i dont mind what we use.
 Lets get to what i have in this little storage that we call brain.

Hmm lets see.
I graduated out of Pasum already.
But with a horrible result, because i played a lot in my 2nd semester.
Well its not that horrible. Not below 3.3~
And yeah, it caused me some difficulties to get into a degree programme.
That hurts. Lets say ouch out loud. OUCH. padan muka, sapa suruh banyak main lagi.

Cut it short. Being very very very regretful, prayed a lot. Cry a bit here and there.
And many other stuffs, i did to get a place to study.
Thankfully, there was someone that continously supporting me over that period :)
Thankyou miss cherry blossom. YOU. deserve a mention here :))

And Alhamdulillah, it's a miracle, it's a second chance, it's a blessing.
Call it whatever u want. Alhamdulillah, i got the offer to study back at UM doing genetics.

Thinking back about it. It's really really really without a doubt that it is a second chance.
Its impossible to get into UM with my results and taking science subject at the same time.
The more i think about it, the more i feel.. small.

I wont waste this one.
No i wont. People wont get a 3rd chance. So i'll make the best out of it :)
So yeah people. Im here in UM same college. 12th.
signing out~

take a hearing, its kites

Am very tired of This

Will pay a penny to whosoever,

who can evaporate me into thin air,

And disappear for a while.

Old me please dont come back

Crack Creek Bone Reeks

Okayyyyyy its really been a while peeps. ngeh ngeh

Guess u guys already figured out how lazy i am. yeah no doubt.

Well, well... news? not much.

Still living this fragile life. Walking the edgy roads. And still taking shelter at UM

Here's one worth to tell.

This morning, me and my friends. We hiked broga hill

Kitorang gerak from kk12 at 5 am.

And to add to that commotion, i didnt sleep the whole night dota-ing.

Till my eyes go @.@

Lets cut it short, we messed up in taking the real routes to the peak.
End up patah balik and we started hiking (i wont call it hiking XD)

But but but waittt. kitorang smpai kt puncak.

Time tu matahri mcm tgh nak naik. And the sky is all orangy!

Byk dah orang time tu. And and we spent our time on the peak.

Chatting and Laughing. Fluffy time ^^

Achievement: Broga Hill conquered

Oh and mid sem's exam ended yesterday.

I know the result wont be all good.. ~.~

Face it. muahahaha

Time to start drawing! Smeargle! i summon you!

Well, wanna know s'thing?

I'ts new year and i dont even give sh*t.
HAHAHA. I dont know, maybe things like celebrating new year is just not part of me.

No offence, kay guys.

As everyone else gather among and watch fireworks, im pretty much being with myself.

In my room watching a firework screensaver. LOL

Played with mizuu for a while and im totally in love.

Well here's a say. In a way, i think i did celebrate new year. One day late.
Haha, you know me. I procrastinate XD

We basically went dinner kt Saba'.

And there was this crazy idea nak patah balik pegi mid tgk movie.

-.- Just imagine how far is that Wangsa maju ===> Mid valley

But everyone kinda agree to that idea and guess what? It was worth it.
We picked a movie that we never heard of. Never watch the trailer pun.
I guess im the only one who still excited that we watch that movie.

New year movie : we bought a zoo

Go and watch that :) Til then guys. adios~

It's about time

It's been a while since i posted something up here.

Bersawang dah. haha

I dont know, i just dont have the groove to post i think.

And its been a while since that last shitty post.

That post is kinda degrading myself. In a way.

Well we need to stop talking about that.

Here is something new, i've found something to occupy most of my free time.

Okay not most, almost all of my free time (we make an exception for my sleep ;)

And its a yoyo! Hahahaha ironic isnt it?
Theres about a kzillion things that exist around me and yet i pick a boring old yoyo.

Maybe some wires in my head just short-circuited. Overheat with stuffs happening around me.

And and and i'm so pscyhed about yoyo, i odered an awesome one.

I cant wait to have it!! Btw its called the Dv888.

Thats all to life now.
Well til then. Cheers~ ;)

Cant say i'm sad to see you go.

Because i am sad. No need any mentions.

Get to think about it, life is full of surprises.

I reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally wish we could have it like before.

It was fun and happy.

Well, i cant be sad forever right?

I'm gonna treasure the memories.

Thanks for being a part of the story, we had good moments together =)

Until next time~

I DONT WANT TO LOSE A GOOD FRIEND

Its a pain when u cant find the words to say.

All i want is to make things go back like before.

We had fun times together.

Can we retrieve it back?

4 month and counting =(

Guysss sup? I'm back at UM for the second semester

Early? Hell yeah. Because we have muet on our tail. Still not finished yet

And since its the start of the second semester, it means that i ONLY have 4 month left, here at UM

Wondering why i put that sad smiley up there?

Because it means that i have ONLY 4 MONTH left before she's gone.

Not that i cant meet her after that, but its hard since she's not in the region...

Yeah im still gonna be sad because i wont be able to meet up other friends like we did daily,

But the main intention im writing this post right now is because of .... her.

4 month.. lets make it worth while it last. I'm gonna regret it if i dont.

I wanna leave behind good memories, so i can cherish them when everything is over.. (i wish badly that it wont be over)

JOHOR : backpacked!

fuwa fuwa time~ #fluffy time as in english

surprisingly, this IS another post. hahaha

C'mon, its not normal lah for me to post. lazy bummer, yeah thats me.

The commotion was that, i just got back from backpacking from johor.

And it was fun! yup yup pure excitingly fun!

Stayed for 3 days at lukman's house. Thanks for the hospitality and free meals man! XD

Got myself 2 pieces of shirts from the so-called 'Bazaar Karat'. The shirts are sweeeet~

Oh oh! forgot to mention bout that pink sneakers. Yup got that one also from bazaar karat.

For those who are flaming me because i actually BOUGHT a PINK sneakers, here goes.

I bought it because it is seasonedddd. Mind the Ds. It look horribly awesome,

And it doesnt look like hello kitty. =.=

Okay, what else.... Ohya, i went jamming for the 1st time.

Full gratitude to lukman and his friends for taking me there. It felt so coool.

Hell yeah, i sang two song.

That is when you realized that its harder to sing because your voice cant be heard.

Yupp, the drums and guitars are so loud u cant hear ur own voice. epic LOL

Then i checked out johor city square and istana garden.

yawn, nothing interestin to tell bout those, but its something new to see lah kan?

Hop onto kl bus at 2 O'clock. Arrived about 7 at home.

Sum?? = epic backpacking trip i ever had.

Oh one more thing~ something happened on the bus before we departed.

Not likely to be seen everyday. And i managed to record it

Not gonna tell here. Gonna post tht vid on facebook if im that 'rajin' =3 fufufufu

The exam's over and the party has just began.

Yeappp thats what it says.

Partyin partyin yeah! Fun fun fun - Rebecca Black

Wth

I wont be explainin how was the exam bcs its surely gonna ruin the mood

Stayed in UM for another day just to get out with someone.

Had a wonderful evening :)

Bila pulang rumah, after raya im gonna be backpacking to lukman's

gonna stay 3 days to 1 week or so~

Jamming!

Lets make a good memory of this.

Cant wait for second semester to start.

Pasum will last for 5 month, then..

i wont be predicting whats gonna happen.

LOL = lots of love. haha

thats all to it. see ya guys

4 days till exam

Hey guys. the title says it all. yupp 4 days left.

FINAL MID SEMESTER EXAM.

@.@ naah dun worry bout the smiley. haha. i've been studyin.

And still studyin. Progress bh. lol, since when i start to use bh to blog =.=

Almost done for chem and phys and math i guess. Whats left is bio.

Gosh, damn all those facts.

Seriously.. does knowing which phylum liverworts is, gonna make me less dumb when im old?

Crap. What to do.. Read je lah.

i dont know how can i manage to blog somethin now. haha. happens.

Oh and, one more thing.

She's being mean to me. Haha. Thats her. Its normal.

But she's even meanier this while (is that how u type meanier? -,- )

Its okay. I need to suit myself with that =))

Maybe bcs of the exam. And she needs to study i think?

And is it my fault i guess?

Geez i'm been thinking a lot lately. lucky no uban when out XD

Thats it for now. I'm gonna say Hi to bio. Bye guys

I LIKE HER

enuff said.

Life lIfe liFe lifE

hey guys. :) its been awhile since my last post.

its kinda crap :D malas+byk kerja+distracted by other stuff=no post

and well, luckily datang angin nak post pulak pagi ni. weird oh? nvm~

yeah, title says it all. I dunno what to rant other than that.

Okay here we go!

The first term of Pasum is coming to and end. Fast. Quick. Dont want.

It'll be another month before the holiday. 2weeks je pun @.@

Add to that, we have final midterm exam. Lagi 3 weeks kot? And i havent studied well.

Oh God, Oh God, Oh God.

Talkin bout studies, the N1 mates planned to stay the whole 3 weeks at UM. means no balik rumah la for weekends after this. Kinda okay, i guess?

Oh and another one, i got myself stuck with a girl :)))

she's cute. Naah im not going to blabber all the way about her here.

I think thats it. Almost. Yup, thats it. Sums up (all?) that is happening

Till next time guys~ Ciao.

Oh, i've changed the music.

Another lame post

i admit that ive fun life in um.. but still, ryte now, tonite. i feel hollow inside.

maybe bcos im too lazy to listen to lectures

maybe bcos im too lazy to do algebra and calculus

maybe bcos ive strayed too far from the routine ive done at school

maybe JUST bcos i feel bored ryte now

maybe bcos im chasin somethin that i shouldn

yeahh. this is another lame post.

who knows, maybe tomorro, i'll live life just like b4. forgettin all tonite worries.

truly. feeling empty inside rite now.

yeahh. another lame post

GOsh Ramadhan

Its been a while since i last posted here. lazy much

NO, not goin to rant about that lazy part here. pretty much self explainatory guys.

The thing is, i wanna say somethin about ramadhan.

This morning, during lecture. Lecturer tu cakap,

"Haaa dah 18 hari dah puasa, tinggal 12 hari je."

My eyes bulged. SERIOUUUSLYYYY? BIAR BETUL? (at that time i was reading a novel)

Muslihin kat sebelah cakap,

"A'ah betul la. fasa kedua ramadhan nak habis dah."

Syahidd ckap, "Takde ah sai, lecturer tu tgh buat lawak, sebenarnye skang ni baru satu ramadhan" =.=

I mean.. WHAT THE H? aku x rasa langsung Ramadhan dah 18 hari. When i say langsung, it totally means LANGSUNG.

Ohhh Goddd, bila fikir2 balik.. Ape je ak buat Ramadhan kali ni. Tarawih dlm bilik? Main dota? Dgr lagu ntah hape2 ntah? Truly wasted...

Yapp, betul org ckap.. haaaaa. i hate to say this, but i miss my time at kisas.

The Routine

I kno, kita x boleh anggap amal sebagai rutin. But that particular routine at kisas that made me felt Ramadhan IS something.

Andd i dunno if it was coincidence or not, that novel i was reading is 'Contengan Jalanan' by Hlovate.

The plot suddenly plunge into Ramadhan jugak. So byk la bnda cerita pasal Ramadhan n such.

Sigh terasa..

So 12 days left. Im an idiot. N happy amalan guys. CIao~

meh rehat telinga dari screamo jap~

Hey people

Lazy to post lately =.=

I changed the song,

Hope u guys like it.

Njoy ; )

Friggin bad-Ass Orientation

Hence, the orientation week for UM foundation students had come to an end.

It was damn exhausting =.=

Why?

!st, the time table is pack with activity. from 6.00 am till 2.oo am the next day.

(what the hell, we only get 4 hours of sleep)

@nd, most of the activities were ridiculous. Heck yeah, we're dancing at 6.00 am with some frantic chinese musics

#rd, the PP (kind of fasilitator) are a bunch of idiots XD Their hobby were to shout and scream (naaah fry scream ak lagi bes)

$th, i got a new haircut b4 registering into UM. Everyday was a bad hairday.

(haaa? ape kaitan? )

Okayy.. Now try combine all my reasons, and you'll get !@#$

Pretty cool isnt it? XD